oh man oh iman i am being so bad this ramadan. i just m not doing anything. im reading my seerah and enjoying it but that doesnt really count - plus i just feel guilty reading it cos if i was really touched by it and the ppl in it then i would strive to folow their example and do what they did during ramadan.

the slumber doesnt help. im sooo fatigued all the time. Feels like when the Abu Jahl ordered his men to kill the Prophet pbuh but as they were waiting outside Allah made sleep come over them. Ha! But yeh, super lazy. Maybe I have an illness. Maybe its cos im eating too much bread, but i am eating fruit too. Dunnno, zzzz.

I despise sharing a kitchen. Despise it to hell and back. Though I should be grateful that i have running water. alhamdulillah a billion times. and more than that a toilet and a sewage system. Imagine being so poor tht u dont have a toilet or a sewage system. omg the flies. may Allah accept my sincere sincere thanks and continue to bless me with these blessings pleeassse and also goodness in the hereafter.

had to teach KS1 kids. omg they were so tiny. and so dumb! 5-7 yr olds - they dont know anything some of them. im gonna super teach my kids inshallah. how on earthw as i supposed to teach em about FT??

dilemma about eid, to go in laws for the day or not? Hate train journeys with avengence. cant do journeys anymore. plus they dont really want me there, its just so Y is there, so whats the point? i wish i had a family too.

useless

man i am so useless. useless and crap at everything i do. cant do anything right, well or good. really a frikin waste of space. so worried