Thursday, 25 December 2008

so fucking pissed off. fucking fucking fuckker

Sunday, 21 December 2008

fuk u u fuking fucking WANKER

Saturday, 20 December 2008

fuk u. seriously. cnyt stand thought of the rest of my life. such fukin sht. fukkin fukkin dickhead

Thursday, 18 December 2008

scared

ugh hel bound

scared reading book - We need to talk about Kevin. its about a mother who detests her child, well the first third i read is anyway. is he innately evil/ the way she rights about him makes me believe her tho she sounds like a selfish cold hearted b**** too. omg what if im like tht. dont think i will inshallah but i get so so so so so annoyed with some kids. i have developed a hatred of the 6 yr old at the momemnt. ignored it for 3 days. feel bad. dont care. whot if my child turns into a murderer too? hope i bond. hpe it doesnt cry Too much. hope i cn earn its respect. hope i cn be a good Muslim parent.

where is he? its 22.13 n he's not back from work. eugh so tired. work is so draining. so tiring. love it but i hate it. so fat i hate it it.

room is being deep cleaned. feels nice. need new cupboards and perhaps a bed and perhaps get rid of this massive bookshelf but how to convinve him of tht?